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June 19th, 2004
01:20 pm - Wow, we are so retarded
Mae- Tisbury Lane
the whole hardcore thing is a joke. we are just kids with too much sugar up our butts. anyways, i doubt i am scene. the type of music i listen to sometimes, along with the usual emo and whatever else i feel like. i came here to type what honestly is going on in my life. i can't on xanga, a lot of stuff i don't want people i know reading this. so, i changed my name and the names of the people and made a highly unlikely livejournal username.
School got out on thursday. I got yelled at by my overbearing controlling dad about how i am too good to get a job. like i haven't been trying for two years. Then I went to my boyfriend's house. His name is not really Nick, but thats what I'm calling him. His guy friend Elijah was over as well. But my friend, thexkiller (Nicole), was going out with him before they had some troubles. She is intimidated by me, but I don't find myself that pretty. That's why I lost my friend Alison. I thought she hated me, but she was apparently just jealous, which is dumb.
But now, no more school. I got my million pound books for summer homework. Then I had a bass guitar lesson, which was cool. I bought tickets for the Saves the Day show in July. It'll be cool. Then I went to see Dodgeball. Nicole and Alison showed up and the tickets sold out. And Nick was like, they hate us, they don't want to go. I was like Jesus, thats the dumbest thing I've ever heard. Then in the movie, someone thought he was a girl. He has long hair and tight pants, and I was all embarrassed, because i am not really the lesbian type. but, i don't think he looks like a girl. it's just weird when other people thinks he looks like one. So he was like... you always bring it up!!! Then I didn't hold his hand, but I felt guilty.
I like another boy besides Nick, my boyfriend of about 10 months. His name is Josh. I can't help it, he isn't anything special, but I kind of lust for the kid. I told him my feelings last night and he said he didn't feel the same way. I just felt really relieved. I dunno, it's just I'm on such a guilt trip lately.
I got a job yesterday, data crunching. it sucks, but better than death from my dad. today I am going to a local show. Yeah, Nicole will be all scene and we'll party. Oh well, I guess I'll go fingerpaint or something.
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12:58 pm - IM SO HARDCORE
xxx even my boobs scream better than the guy from atreyu. well, so last i saw dodgeball with my fashioncore boyfriend. those tight are the spoodle doodle of the seventies. what? i don't make sense, but its okay, because i'm hardcore. at dodgeball, we dyed our hair black. we thought we could show the rest of the scene kids how its done. then we started making out with old people because we are so hardcore. then we died and came back to life because we are so hardcore god was like, no, you need to set an example for the rest. yes thats me. the queen of hardcore. you fucking pansies die. wanna hardcore kids. you'll never be as hardcore as me. i love you. xxxxxxxxx and i love NORMA JEAN!!! xx
x toxic kiss x
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